I’m sick to death of ‘it’ making me feeling like shit. I hate how ‘it’ makes me feel so low and I let ‘it’. Why do I let ‘it’ get to me so much. Why can’t I just ignore ‘it’ and get on with life ‘it’ really can’t see what there doing and it’s such a hard subject to keep approaching I don’t know why I bother I may aswell sit here in silence.

I feel like we’re in a hurdles race at the moment I couldn’t tell you where we placing but god it feels like we’re first then last up and down sometimes it would be nice not to have a hurdle to jump.

‘Sometimes you just have to sit there in silence’

As much as i hate my mother saying this to me. it unfortunately applies at the moment. I just don’t know what to do its the most frustrating thing ever, don’t you wish you could sit here with all the answers. 

i dont know how much more i can take, is it in my head? is it happening?is my head making it worse? i know its the root of evil but i cant escape it urgh! im fighting and losing battle but how can i tell him that :/